It is hard to believe it's been 4 months since I've last visited loveyourflawz. However, I like the distance. Now I have something to truly write about. An actual event will be taking place in my life. For about a year I've been planning and preparing for England and now exactly to the date I have a week to go. My stomach is in knots, my mind races with a million thoughts and once in a while my hands begin to shake. Yes, I am nervous and anxious about my trip and some fear is mixed in too. I am not afraid of what is waiting for me there, wonderful friends, but more less it is the unknown that frightens me. This will be my first trip anyway alone and since this is my first journey outside the States I'm even that much more nervous about it all. It will be worth feeling all of this once my feet touch down on English soil. I am looking forward to sharing of my travels once I return. Take care all.

Lindsey

Ok this morning I've decided that I'm just going to be the real Linds and carry on has I have been when that certain co-worker is around. I hopefully won't fall into the lines of " fakeness" today...is that a real word? Yet still if anyone out there in the big world of the net stumbles upon my little blog and has some insight to share my ears are open!  Anyway here's to all of us having a great day and weekend...CHEERS!

Take care, God bless,

I've always been about being real. Fake people really unnerve me but I find myself asking my inner self "are you being genuine?" I feel I am but yet there is this underlining sense that all of me is not truthful to myself or to others. The situation is this...for three months a certain someone where I work, my co-worker, has been out on leave for reasons only she knows. For those three months I've found that things at work have been moving on smoothly and her presence I really haven't missed. On one hand I can count the people who really make a difference in my work environment. At one time I thought she was one but after her leave it became clear that she truly wasn't and isn't one of those special few. The ones who I truly admire and look up to are hands down, point blank, no hidden agenda people. Those are the ones I want to surround myself with...life shouldn't be about guessing where people stand we should know where they stand. So I find myself unsure of where I stand in the genuine department in regards to where my fellow co-worker is involved. Today she has returned to work after a three month leave and I find myself trying to avoid her. She tends to be one of those people who get caught up on what her outside appearance looks like and not so much the inside. Me I want the inside to be in line first. So my question is how do I stay true to myself in not acting one way toward my co-worker when I know deep down inside that I feel completely different about her. I am sure there are countless many out there who have been in my situation. Some advice I've been given this morning from one of my admired co-workers is to speak but keep on walking...don't slow down to have a chin wag (chat) with her. However the real me is someone who doesn't want to just brush people off...what do I do? Maybe I should just think on it for a while and go with what I feel inside. 

Have a great day,

A man walked into the office where I work wearing a shirt that read 'everyone is entitled to be stupid...but you are abusing the privilege'. Many no doubt will laugh, have laughed or are laughing at that statement but this morning it just doesn't sit well with me. Maybe it's wrong to think this way but if clothes represent who we are and our attitudes toward life and the people in it, then what does it say about you when you wear clothes such as this? 

Maybe this is food for thought.

Mostly when I think of England I think of my lovely friend June, writing or calling me from across the pond. The thought of actually going to England myself always frightened me so I was content with writing letters and receiving the occasional phone call. In wanting to change my life for the better to conquer my fears I decided I'd do more than just sit around and wait for more letters and phone calls. So next year at the end of April I will be leaving for England and will enjoy all that's English for two weeks. My body is filled knots not because I'm stressed well maybe a little but because I wish it were April 2012 now!!! However time flies by so quickly and I think prolonging this trip will only add that much more to my already building excitement. For me places like love your flawz has helped me in ways to want to change what holds me back...I'm more motivated in what I want to do for God now so that is truly what's behind me wanting to change for the better. How will we know what's waiting for us until behind closed doors unless we knock.

good day everyone,

song by Francesca Battistelli.

Motion of Mercy

currently working on writing new songs...at the moment this is one I'm pleased with.

The world of communication is so wonderful. This is the time where I appreciate technology. Usually my friend June and I correspond by letter when talking with each other we are sentimental like that. However nothing takes the place like hearing the voice of a friend or loved one. So the point of this blog is if you haven't already today- take the time to ring a friend, family member or whoever you have in your life. Take those extra minutes to really appreciate all that they mean to you. Don't let time difference or a pond keep you apart from those most important to you...I don't. Take care everyone and hope you all have a lovely 4th of July!

Today is one of those days where you feel lower than low as far as appearance goes. I HATE feeling this way so to help me feel better about myself I thought I'd visit loveyourflawz this morning and read the quotes section. This is one of the many features I love about this site. After reading the inspired quotes on what beauty is I always feel better. Hope all of you have a lovely day I pray that God will help me overcome this feeling of inadequate...I know he will. So here's to Me and You having beautiful, blessed, lovely days this week. 

CHEERS!!!!!!!

I've always heard if you keep something long enough it will come back in fashion. Wonder if that applies to culture and revolutions? I don't thing Bob Dylan was thinking past the Vietnam war generation when he wrote "The Times They Are A Changin'" then again he could have...this song seems to sum up how I view the world and its events today. Sometimes it feels like we are on the verge of another revolution.  In case you don't know the song or lyrics here you go...

The Times They Are A Changin' by Bob Dylan